The Boss by J. L. Perry

Author:J. L. Perry [Perry, J. L.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: J. L. Perry
Published: 2017-01-29T05:00:00+00:00

I pour some scotch into a glass, downing it in one gulp. I welcome the burn of the amber liquid as it runs down the back of my throat. I don’t hesitate in pouring another. I’m not much of a drinker, usually only sharing the occasional beer with Ethan, but today calls for the hard stuff. I’m yearning to be numb. I don’t want to think or feel, it hurts too much. If it wasn’t for me going around to visit my parents, I’d never see them. They’ve never once made the effort to reach out to me, or see how I’m doing. Yet Ethan always has. I’m gonna miss that. I haven’t just lost a friend today—Ethan’s my family. The only real family I have.

After drinking my second scotch, I place the glass down. I rest my hands on the bar and exhale a large breath. I contemplate calling Ethan again. I’ve tried twice since I’ve been home, but he disconnected the call both times. I don’t know what else I can do to smooth this out. In the almost twenty years of our friendship, we’ve never fought. Never. That’s one of the reasons why this has hit me so hard.

My thoughts drift to Hanna. I miss her already. I’m craving her comfort, but I’m scared to reach out to her. I’ve faced enough rejection in my life. I couldn’t stand it if she rejected me as well.

I’ve always enjoyed going into the office, even more so the past few weeks . . . because of her. But tomorrow I’m dreading it. What if she doesn’t show up? That’s really going to fuck me over. I’m not banking on seeing Michelle anytime soon, either.

Picking up the empty glass, I raise it above my head, before instantly lowering it again. Throwing the glass against the wall isn’t going to solve anything. It’s not going to make this clusterfuck disappear, and it’s certainly not going to make things right between me and Ethan. Or guarantee my future with Han. There’s nothing I can do to undo this mess. Even walking away from Hanna won’t help. I’m sure as hell not prepared to do that either. I can’t . . . I’m in way too deep to even consider it.

Sliding my phone out of my pocket, I stare down at the screen. There’s no missed calls or messages from her. That fills me with dread. The end for us is near, I can feel it.

I head towards my room to change. Maybe a good workout will help relieve some of the tension I’m feeling. It can’t hurt. It’s not like I’ve got anywhere else to go.

It’s funny how one minute you can be on top of the world, surrounded by people who care—the ones that enrich your life and make it so much better—and in a blink of an eye it’s all gone and you feel lower than you have in your entire life . . . and so fucking alone.

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